Tuesday, 11 February 2014

I thought I left school yard cliques long behind

Do you know what happens to the "mean girls" from high school? They grow up, have kids, and become the "mean moms" in the school yard. If you don't drive the right SUV, or wear the right brand of yoga pants (yes, I'm generalizing), they give you the side eye as you walk past. I figured once I grew up that the cliques would be done with and that parents could just be pleasant with each other. Boy was I wrong.
I haven't felt this inferior since I was in school myself. Grade school moms can be right bitches.

Whatever. I'll continue to hold my head up and smile at people in the school yard no matter how small I feel. I don't want to see myself on their level.
If you can't beat them, join them? No thanks. I'll pass.

Monday, 10 February 2014


-30c. Seriously. How did humans survive this kind of crap before houses with gas furnaces? I totally understand why so many retirees go south for the winter. I was thisclose to keeping my oldest home from school today.

My husband bought toy guns for the kids this weekend. I was not pleased. I really don't like guns. I have never bought them for my kids. Even water shooter I try to stay away from guns and usually buy the spray stick.

My goal this year is to learn how to knit. I've been thinking of it for a while. Really, I just wanna make myself a hat.

Saturday, 8 February 2014

I'm not really a bad cook

I am kind of frustrated today. I have been cooking baked beans for a day and a half, and they're still hard. Not impressed! I get so mad when I think I'm following a recipe properly, and I still manage to mess up. I'll probably end up freezing them and cooking them more at a later date. I wonder if that'll just make it worse?

Wednesday, 5 February 2014

Oh My Goodness! I am mesmerized by TLC tonight. 600lb Life, Hoarding... It's like driving past an accident. I just can't look away. Although every time I watch these shows it inspires me to watch my eating and get rid of junk. That's a good thing, no?

I'm getting sick of this -25c crap. This time of year I start to look forward to spring. I need to be pro-active this year. March is always such a hard month for me.
I've got my sunshine light, and I should really remember to take my vitD every day.
Also sleep!

Tuesday, 4 February 2014

I am digging these guys
This too

Also, Family Guy. So good, but soooo bad.

My sewing is (poorly)done.

I have a seven year old's party to plan. I have no idea what I should do to entertain them. Games? Playing in the snow? Ugh. Well at least I have a week to figure it out.

Monday, 3 February 2014

I way overused my sore shoulder today. Now I can barely move. It'll be nice once this heals.
I play words with friends, and one of the random people obviously uses a word program. Blech. What's the point of your high score if you're not using your own brainpower.
I should be sewing a pocket on a coat right now, but I really don't feel like it.

Sunday, 2 February 2014

My worst enemy is food

If you don't believe food addiction is a real thing, you're wrong. I love/loathe food, whether I'm hungry or not. I get cravings like I did for cigarettes.
At least there was a patch for that.
I'll eat anytime. If I'm happy, if I'm bored, if I'm emotional. I have stuffed myself so full and painfully that I would need to throw up. I have taken classes on nutrition and coping with cravings. But it is so hard. To quit a drug or alcohol dependence, you can stay away from your vices. That doesn't work for me, every day I still have to put food into my mouth just to survive. There lies my problem. Once I make my first bad choice of the day, I feel like I can't stop.
So here is my commitment to myself.

  • I will try to be more conscious of my food choices
  • I will stop eating when I'm full
  • I will not hate myself if I slip 

I have a pulled muscle in my back and a cold. Coughing hurts. A lot. And so, I am covered in Tiger Balm. We've been invited to the in-laws for dinner, but I think I'll stay home. I don't want to share my germs. I think my husband can handle the kids for a couple of hours.

Saturday, 1 February 2014

Well I started a blog almost two years ago. And then I stopped. I haven't had any inspiration or direction, and quite often I really don't find myself interesting.
So here's to a new start and random thoughts.